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Humanity Lives Within Great Mythologies

Mythologies are the sacred tales that illuminate the origins and endings of our shared human experience. They are the maps of meaning, the threads of culture, and the narratives that have woven together civilisations. Whether we consent to it or not, humanity is embedded within these ancient stories, which shape our understanding of the world. But the time inevitably comes when we must dust off the cobwebs, update the myths, and rewrite the stories that we use to encase ourselves.

Lilith

For anyone who knows me, it will come as no surprise that my love for Lilith is ever pervasive.

I have loved you since the beginning, in the chambers where the discarded, the outcasts, and the offcuts were left behind.

You took them in.

Lilith, your fierceness has always found sanctuary in the chambers of my own heart.

I have stood in the face of oppression, my eyes alight with your fire, hissing: Not on my watch!

Lilith first entered my life as an archetype at the cusp of my maidenhood—a roaring feminine force demanding the liberation of my primal power. Her story poured into my cellular memory with rage, grief, and the gifts of matter, eros, and the human body. In my twenties, her energy became the lens through which I viewed the world, a lens anchored deep in my bones, my base, my womb, and my blood.

There are many stories of Lilith, but the most well-known is her role in the creation myth and the Garden of Eden. In this tale, Lilith is said to have been Adam's first wife. She was cast out for her refusal to lie beneath him in lovemaking, for her refusal to submit to his patriarchal will. Eve, who replaced Lilith, complied with submission and became the figure who, through her temptation of Adam and the consumption of the forbidden fruit, led humanity out of Eden.

The lament of Lilith echoes through time—the oppression of sexuality, the body, and the powerful kundalini energies symbolised by the serpent. The wild, primal feminine expressions were cast out and divided, splitting the feminine into light and dark:

Eve and Lilith
Mother and Whore
Wife and Temptress

Lilith found sanctuary in the fringes of the Kingdom, typecast as the succubus, the temptress, the angry witch.

And yes, she is angry—raging at the denial of her gifts to humanity and at the continued domination of what she holds sacred.

The Wound That Never Heals

Through my embodied journey with Lilith, I have learned that in order to heal the suffering caused by patriarchal energies, I had to release parts of my identity that were too closely tied to her rage. For years, I was in constant battle with an invisible hand of authority and control. Beneath the surface, simmered a rage, always ready to rise in the face of any potential dominator. I mistrusted men, the masculine, and sought refuge in female bodies, in the lineage of the Witch. But in time, I realised that I had to break up with Lilith, to free myself from the wound that never healed—one that kept me in a constant state of war.

To truly heal, I had to find the seat of my power between both worlds—the masculine and the feminine—and then beyond them. Her struggle to be recognised, her rage against outer powers, her grief at what was cast out and denied, had separated her from love, from the longing to return to it.

She Who Never Forgets

The archetypal energy of the Dark Feminine, of Lilith, is alive in all bodies, all genders. One of its shadows is the withholding of forgiveness when hurt. This shadow manifests as slow-building resentment, reinforcing the narrative of victimhood, and blocking the potential for healing and return to love. I have felt the grip of this shadow in my own life—those subtle whispers at the threshold of forgiveness, murmuring of mistrust, betrayal, and abuse.

I confess that, at times, I took a perverse delight in my refusal to collapse harm into innocence. I colluded with the narrative of my own suffering and became the eternal punisher, forever holding the past to account. And for a time, it felt empowering.

Until it didn’t.

The separation from love—my refusal to return to it—became just as painful as the fight to validate my wounds.

The Internal Patriarchy

I will never forget the shock of discovering my own internal dominator. I uncovered Adam within me—the voice that shamed my wildness, undermined my power, and kept me locked outside the kingdom of my own belonging. The voice that subjugated my femininity—dieting, controlling my body, pushing me into models of beauty that concealed my “unacceptable parts.” Underneath my feminine identity, I found the very masculine I had fought against on the outside.

The only way forward was to find love for this aspect within me. I had to collapse my internal polarity, to forgive the masculine and feminine inside me and to claim my seat of power, no longer divided, but whole.

Uncovering this piece of the puzzle shattered my worldview of gender. I could no longer see myself as a woman trapped within a feminine narrative that excluded the masculine; I was the whole ring.

Gender and Civilization

One of the most heartbreaking divisions in humanity is gender—the reduction of universal principles (the feminine and masculine) to specific bodies (man and woman). The feminine is not just "woman," and the masculine is not just "man." These are principles of life that animate all living things, including male bodies. The feminine is one part of a dual energy system, as is the masculine. Each offers a unique expression of divine energy through humanity and the cosmos.

The identification of women with the feminine and men with the masculine is yet another form of betrayal—a casting out of a fundamental aspect of our divine expression. Throughout history, gender conditioning has solidified this connection, and we have blindly accepted a reductionist view of humanity that fails to reflect the wholeness of our being.

In some esoteric teachings, it is said that early humans were hermaphroditic, unified in gender before we split into separate sexes. Research from the University of Pittsburgh suggests that this may have been the case—the first stages of the evolution of distinct sexes may have evolved from a hermaphroditic ancestor.

I believe that humanity is at an initiatory point—an evolution in which we dissolve our identification with outer forms of gender in order to embody the dual nature of our being. To gaze upon the fringes of our own inner Kingdoms, to uncover the aspects we've cast out, and to see them in one another. To embrace the oppressed feminine inside male bodies, and to see the suffering of the feminine in all bodies. To forgive the patriarchal domination that lives within female bodies, and to extract the universal principles of feminine and masculine from their enmeshment with gender.

Updating the Myth

Each time one human steps closer to love, closer to the innocence at the core of every one of us, we are weaving new myths.

We are opening the gates to Eden. We are waking up from the amnesia of our appointed sins.

We have the power to update the mythologies we live within. This reshaping begins with each individual, from the inside. It starts in the most personal space—the container of our own human experience.

It is time to update the myths that uphold the wounds of the masculine and feminine divide, and the exile from Eden.

Lilith

Lilith, I want you to know that you were always loved.

Your suffering is felt, received, and honored.

You can come home now. Through the forest edge, across the vast plains, and into the cobbled streets of the Kingdom.

It is time to forgive.

Forgiveness does not invalidate your experience, nor the harm you’ve endured. The healing may still continue to unfold, but it brings you back to love—your only true home.

Lilith, it is time to direct your rage towards the liberation of the feminine in all things, within all bodies.

Reach to your sisters inside male bodies and see their suffering too.

I long for you to remember the innocence of life, the Eden inside you. Take this knowing deep into your dark, blood-stained womb—this is the gift of your eternal belonging.